He has it under control

Yesterday I was reminded that God does have everything in control.  Even when I don’t feel it.

I was emotional, overwhelmed with everything, especially finances.  I sat on the floor, my two kids around me and cried out to God for help in desperation.

A few hours and some phone calls later, arranging some bill instalments, I was blessed with a concession back dated and an account in credit instead of debit!  I don't know if the customer service clerk understood why I was crying when she said I was now in credit!

God does have it in control.  Just another reminder.

Who am I?

The clincher was introducing myself to some new people in a small group.  “I’m a single mum” was how the introduction started.

There wasn’t time to elaborate, yes I’m a single mum, no not by choice, blah blah blah…..  I’ve been pondering why I made the choice to introduce myself as such.  Why do I feel lowered, depressed etc when I dwell that yes I am a single mum.  I work three jobs, look after a 4 and nearly 6 year old and try (unsuccessfully) to keep a semblance of home.  

When people hear the phrase “single mum” there seems to be an instant pity.  'Oh poor you', 'I don’t know how you do it'.  That makes two of us!

But I’m not just a single mum.  I am a women who loves God, has dreams, goals and hopes for the future.  Just like any other woman.

So as at today I’m consciously making the decision to not refer to myself as a ‘single mum’.  I’m a mum to two beautiful children, I’m an employee, I love kids, I’m involved in Children’s Ministry, I’m adventurous, I love reading, I am a daughter of God, I am fearfully and wonderfully made!

In ALL these things!

So often everything just builds up and life just seems so overwhelming.  I've had the toughest two years of my 38 years.  

But it's not just me that has had life throw curve balls.  Everywhere around me friends and family have their own circumstances - some similar, some different - but hard in their own way.

The only hope I hold onto is knowing that whatever I have gone through...and whatever is still to come God loves ME!

And because He loves me I will get through this.  I will conquer and come out victorious.

Romans 8:37

It's my favourite Bible verse.  I stand on it constantly when everything else fails.  It's nice to have something to give hope when all seems lost...

... and it's the subject of my favourite novel I shared many a times with Mum :).